I submitted my resume for the first time in search of post-grad employment.
It’s weird.
I spent 4 years looking at the table where class rings were being sold, never paying attention, because it didn’t apply to me…and HERE I AM…
right smack dab in the center of not only things that apply to me, but things to apply for.
I’ve always had extremely high expectations of myself and as such, I expected to have THE job post – graduation…BUT, ya know, although I have absolutely no clue what this next journey will bring, where I will be, or what adventure life will throw at me, I’m finally in a place to just greet it with a smile…and way more rest.
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Journal from Nov. 12. 17
Today was the last time that I would register for courses in my Undergraduate career. I scheduled my last semester of work in the Admissions Welcome Center. These might be some of the last moments that I see some of the people that have shaped the last 4 years of my life. This might be the last time that I call Ypsilanti, “HomE”. This is my last year of college — and while there have been so many “lasts” that can and should be celebrated, there are also many “firsts” that should be acknowledged.
This is the first time in my collegiate career that I have truly allowed my mental and physical health to guide my schedule.
The first time that my sleep was more important than finishing a project.
The first time that I work out because it makes me feel good, not because I feel guilty.
The first time that I’ve had to listen to my heart and make a big leap — diving in and out of things that scare you and challenge you are an integral part of the process of growing up…and I’m still figuring it out.
The first time that I allowed myself to share insight into the dark places that I can find my brain migrating towards.
The first time that I say, “YES!” to adventure over schoolwork.
I live in a place that feels like home right when I walk in — college comes with its own myriad of stressors and things throughout the day, so to walk through the door and take my shoes off, is a big deal.
The first time that I haven’t restricted the food that enters my body — I’ve always been conscious of what I consume, but I’ve learned to still choose with moderation. An iced cookie or a big bowl of mac & cheese will not affect me.
The first time that I have let go of social media — if I post, I post. If I don’t, I don’t.
The first time that I have allowed myself to let go of the people that negatively impact my space and in turn, express joy when they have accomplished something of importance to them.
The first time that I am truly being.
So, although there may be plenty of things that are ending and coming to their own close, there are so many things that are still in the works and are so exciting.
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oh, and paying off my last tuition bill, rent, and a student loan payment all in one day makes a gal feel all sorts of extra accomplished.
Here’s to the unknown — welcome to my world.
xo jo